Balancing Act (ing)

So, I have been thinking about the core of who we are and what we stand for. I think that everyone has a truth within themselves that is the most accurate part of them. I think that lots of people term it as different things and that it doesn't really matter what we call it...so long as we acknowledge and honor it. Whether we call it our spirit, our soul, our authentic self, our core, our truth, our inner light, our pure person, our person, our divinity...whatever the name...it exists. And, our happiness is linked to how in tune our life is with that part of us. In psychology, we talk about congruence. That you cannot have peace unless there is congruence in your life. If you believe something (and it is truly what you believe), you cannot go against it without it causing some incongruence within you. Sometimes, it is called 'Cognitive Dissonance'. Really, it just means we are imbalanced...or out of balance.

So, how do we act balanced?

And, then, is it just acting?

Can you 'act' balanced...and not be accurate? I guess this is like 'faking calm' a bit. I recently said to someone that I cannot fake calm. I mean, a person (particularly one who is used to putting on a bit of a show or pleasing others or being socially correct), can have a calm demeanor...even when they have oceans of inner turmoil. I am not proclaiming that I don't at times "put on a happy face" or act as though I am calm even when I am not. However, my body does not experience peace and calm that is not real or solid. It cannot. I cannot deceive my own body. I can skirt around it and I can deny it (which I am getting better at not doing...but, still need more practice...). But, I cannot fake it.

I used to get crap for being fake (Jennifer knows specifically what I am referencing). I really did not see a point in taking my stuff (whatever I was dealing with on my own, behind the scenes, at home...whatever) out on other people. So, I think that I overcompensated quite a bit for a lot of years. And, that came across as fake at times. I even got diagnosed with this (NOT kidding!). I had one of Kevin's therapists tell me that I am so nice and so helpful and so giving...that there will be times that I could be perceived as not being possible...nobody could be THAT _____ (fill in happy, glowing adjective).

Back to my point...I don't mind the occasional ramble, though...

We all have a part of us that needs to find balance. We need to find whatever our balance is. That is what so much of our life is about. I think that we spend a majority of our time (whether we are conscious of it or not...unfortunately, often not...) trying to figure out where our accuracies are. We have a lot of conditioned versions of what the terms should be and what things should look like that will equal happiness/peace/balance/authentic.

I think, though, that it is a different frequency for most of us. And, that there is an art and a life pursuit in finding the frequency that gets you the most in tune with YOU. Many of us get lost in the thoughts of connecting with others. While that should deservedly be a passionate goal, if it becomes the focus, then we will never achieve it completely. It will eclipse the possibility of being in tune with the most inner truths in YOU. It seems a bit backward to say that we will get the best results with others by being self-centered. But, we will. Not in our conditioned thinking of self-centered. But, truly centered on the self within.

While there may be several near fits and lots of things that get us closer to ourselves, I do think that there is an ideal frequency in each of us that allows people to come together in a stunning orchestra of blended harmony. When each of us is in tune to our particular individual frequency, I think that creates the most broad and delicious opportunities to be in tune with each other.

And, THAT is worth a life pursuit. And, THAT is as memorable and stunning as the most divine visual in existence. And, THAT is what I want.